I Don't Seem to Know Myself Very Well

For some reason I've always like to think of myself as very unforgiving.

From time to time though, I suddenly look in the mirror and get an extreme shock to find that I'm actually quite consistently the very extreme polar opposite of what I like think I am.

I mean, once I actually ever do decide to get angry at someone, the grudge is forever. But it takes such an immensely concerted long-term effort and absolute unapologeticness for anyone to ever push me to that point.