Paranoia

[queerbychoice]

My phone rang again and I panicked again and didn't answer it. Whoever it was didn't leave a message but I've decided I'm never answering my phone again.

I also parked my car out in the very back corner behind the apartment complex in the unassigned undesirable faraway parking spots, instead of my own assigned parking spot much nearer to my apartment, because just on the off-chance my parents might come looking for me, I want to feel I've safely arranged all the evidence to indicate that I'm not home.

And I'm leaving my kitchen light off as much as possible, for the same reason.

Still working on my letter to them. Planning to finish it this evening.

Comments

[crazyredhead888.livejournal.com]

Ok so Gayle what is the deal? Maybe I've missed an entry or something, but what happened that you are suddenly so afraid of your parents? I mean I avoid my parents too, but only because they are annoying and I don't want to listen to them bitch.
Why are you all freaked out?

[queerbychoice.livejournal.com]

Because I emailed my mother last week and said I wasn't coming with them to see my grandparents this weekend, and she emailed back last week "Does that mean you're busy, or does it mean you're divorcing the family?" and proceeded to rant for several pages about how I'd better not abandon them; and I've avoided answering or even reading any email from them since then, so at this point they're probably pretty irritated by my silence.

And I very much don't want to deal with their anger "live" right now. I need to be able to explain it by letter, so I have to avoid them until the letter arrives.

Re:

[crazyredhead888.livejournal.com]

So what if they're irritated? You're an adult, there is no reason to be living in fear of your parents! I know it's not easy, but you've got to talk to them, tell them who you are, and let them make the choice to accept you or not. You should be confident that you are a good person Gayle. If you parents choose not to accept the wonderful child they raised, then it is their failing not yours.